Question:
ok so I'm on my fourth day of detox (as an aside rant, I got dicked around by
the health authorities who are supposed to do this - "oh we can set you up with
an appt with the dickhead doctor who does nothing but give you clonidine and
maybe valium YEAH fuck when you want to detox you want to do it NOW... what do
they want me to do fucking mug people at ATM machines for the next 2 weeks to
get money for my fix...Im detoxing because I'm BROKE you jackasses. So I
manage to get plenty valium on the street, gee that was easy and to get the
clonidine I went to a walk in clinic I'd never been to and said I heard
clonidine is good for quiting smoking - bam, a prescription for 49 pills!
This is after saying the same thing to several other doctors about using it to
quit opiates -- "oh no you silly addict, get the hell out of my offce.. no
scripts for you!)
OKOK back to the advice...I'm four days in, ran out of valium, went to try to
score some but nobody is flogging it right after welfare day. So I got the
clonidine and I'm tapering down starting today but I'm fucking hungry and have
lost 20lbs in 4 days, have no appetite, and still feel relatively shitty though
better than the last 3 days. So here's the question: I've got one 30gm
morphine pill. If I eat it for a little relief is my detox going to be
screwed? Am I even going to get any relief? My bones ache from being in bed
for 3 days. What would you do? (and if you're a fiend who would toss the pill
and go get a flap, I don't want to hear from you!!)
Answer:
If it was me being 3 days into it I would just hang on tight and let
it ride. No need to go and take more morphine and prolong the
inevitable. It sucks but being 3 days into it your almost done with
the bad symptoms.
Simple as shit bubs. You wanna detox or you wanna use? Me I was
down to 1/2 mg every other day of bupe and couldn't stand the speedy
shit crawling on the inside out feeling from trying to completely stop.
All I wanted was to stop. Went back on done. Feet are swelled and I
really hate it!!! I wanted to stop so bad that I was seriously
considering sticking a gun in my mouth. I just couldn't get off it
totally. Spent two months on the bupe rocketing down. Mebbe got 3 hrs
of sleep every third day. Bitched to the doc and he wrote me for an
anti psychotic. Mother fucker. I was so on the up and up with him.
All I wanted was two weeks of Valium like 30 mgs a day (10 mgs three
times a day) and a serious sleeping pill. If he was kind hearted mebbe
Nembutal though I didn't ask. The rest of the world regularly scribes
midazolam (Versed in the US and a Hospital only drug). I asked for a
two week scrip with no refills. He gives me some BS that is teh
highest dose possible in an anti-psychotic. Fuck him. Went back to
the done clinic the next day. At least I can sleep when I am on that.
I had spent two months on the Buoe and got really no sleep. Guess the
DEA is winning the war on drugs huh? I am also a chronic pain
patient with a disc impinged on my exiting L4 sciatic nerve root. The
orthopod who got me back heavy on Narcs after 12 years clean and sober
had me on Demrol for 6 month straight. I shoulda told him I was a
recovering addict but after 1 cyears you think you can be responsible
and not become physically dependant. It's not like he was giving me
100n mg a day of dilaudid IV just 300 mg a day of oral meperidine.
Methadone.org tells me I am luck that the levels of normeperidine
didn't give me seizures. Docs are quacks and only as good as tne BS
training fed to them be it from the pharma reps or the DEA. Fuck the
DEA. I have real chronic ain and I am gonna have to up my done dose
cause I am new with this clinic and getting them to split the dose into
3rds or 4ths will take quite a while.
